The Woodring's: 60 days

Today marks the 60 day mark that we went from 3 to 2. On one hand it has been the longest 60 days of my life and on the other hand the past 60 days have been the shortest. One thing I can say for me, is that I have found out a lot about who I am in the last 60 days. I think having time along has given me time to clear my head. I have learned to stand tall and speak proud of who I am and where I want to go. My future is still very unclear but each day a little more fog lifts and I am able to move a little more forward. I learned to stop hiding (or running) from things, face what is front of you with all you have and don't fear it. The lord will provide if you ask. I recently applied for a position with my company in a town 200 miles away. During the interview I was asked why do you want this position? I was speechless, nothing would come out of my mouth. My eyes began to water and after what seemed like forever to respond I simple said "I am truly sorry that I have wasted your time, the real reason for applying for this position was not clear until you just asked me that question. I would like to resend my request for this position." The look on his face was blank, I can only wonder about the look on mine. The truth hit me like a ton of bricks. If I took this position I would be running from all my problems back at home. My daughter, my home, if there is anything left of my marriage, and my family. Running is not going to solve any of the problems only avoid them. After explaining a little more to the interviewer of why I wanted to resend and what hit me like a ton of bricks. He became very impressed with my honesty and tried to talk me out of resending my application. Simply indicated, I would let him know if I would change my mind by the end of the week but I was not going to change my mind. I am going home to see what that road has in store for me.

That's been a few weeks ago and I am honestly say that I am very proud I made the correct decision. I stopped hiding and started living. My problems are going to always be here but now I can face them with open eyes and start making changes. Over the last few weeks I have made new friends that I never dreamed I would make, I am learning how to dance and sing. Oh by the way I am now singing in church!!!! I never sang in church before. I started volunteering on Friday nights at the American Legion in the kitchen and am join a bowling team this weekend. All this along and with people I do not know and never met before.

Sure your wondering what about the rest of the family members, One I can not speak for because we have very little contact with each other. I dearly care for him and hope he is able to find peace with himself with his choices he has made. Please keep him in your prayers.
As for Kels, she is doing great. She will have her times, she said the other night she see's the changes in me and likes them. I am fun again she told me, "Mom don't go back to the way you were before, I like the new you". She is my life and would move the world for her. I will hold true to my promises made and make sure that I don't let her down in any way. I love you babe:)

Hug and kisses to all

PS... I forgot to say that I have lost 45 pounds and am feeling great. Want to lose about 30 more pounds. Let me see if I can post some recent pic's for you.